Before Day 1

Day 1 is tomorrow. I need to start eating healthy and exercising. I want to be healthy so I can live a long life and be a good role model to my daughter. I want to stop hating my body and my mind, to stop using food as a drug and a comfort and a lover and a filler of time. I want to find my muscles, see the good curves God gave me, not the flab that makes me feel so uncomfortable. I want to be light on my feet, not be out of breath when I go up and down stairs or carry my daughter around. I want to be proud of myself. I want to like myself. When I binge on food, this does not happen.